One thing that I must remind you in your pursuit today, I want you to remember this: open the door.
When you are accepting and knowledgeable of all your identities, proclivities, quirks, and kinks, you will be able to take all of them back to the page. Bring them all to stories, to plays, freeing you to create, re-create and imagine as you see fit.
The pre-requisite always being acceptance and acknowledgement of who you are. If you can do this, it will require you to examine you, the world around you, and to make peace with both of them–even if that means acknowledging that both seem not to co-exist.
You have the freedom and power to create the life you want, even on paper.