There will be a time where you will want to stop. I will not lie to you.
There will be times where stopping would be sexier than continuing ever could be. Yet, The Turn is going to determine what it is you are going to do next honestly. I will tell you this one thing. If you stop now, the story (no pun intended) will end right there.
Right there. Right now.
And how you handle The Turn, or a potential turn, is how you will continue. You must determine if you want to continue! The Turn (or the ghost thereof) is not bad in and of itself. It is something that you need to realize which is a reality.
A Turn is neutral. It is your reaction that will make it positive or negative.
Turns are watershed moments which invite you to look within you, to pull something else out–or to show you that nothing else is there. If there be something else in you that cannot relinquish this art, that cannot bear to keep silent, then do not turn back.
My first turn was soon after the first time I published my first book of poetry: LOVE SONGS OF THE UNREQUITED.
I wasn’t taught alot about marketing, making a social media presence, or developing an audience. Yet, all the great things that are happening to me at this point was trial and error.
Sometimes that is great–sometimes that is a detriment.
Yet when my first book wasn’t an instant smash, I could have stopped. But I didn’t.
I could have stopped when my first book signing that was self-funded, wasn’t as great as I wanted–I could have stopped. But I didn’t.
Not because I’m not talent, but because it was hard. It is hard.
It is that hardness, that difficulty, that is enough to make anyone stop. Yet, I did not. I could not! I wanted to see how this would shake out! I wanted to see what could happen. The curiosity of the continue make me think that I might be able to do this if I could just keep going. If I could figure this out, if I could make this my own–if I could just figure out HOW to keep going–then I would.
With my Turn–I had to push past doubt to keep going.
The Turn will demand that you believe the fear–or the fact (that you might be able to do this if you keep going).
If writers are honest, we will tell you that there are instances which provoke us to stop.
If we are honest, we will tell you of the instance where people didn’t believe in us, deterred us, and wanted us to “do something safer.”
Yet, we do not.
Yet, every writer–whether they are traditionally published, or selling books out of the back of their trunks–have stories (multiple stories!) about how they almost quite, should have quit, and secretly wished they had at points.
Which, brings us to this idea–or warning.
“The Turn” is the pivot point by which writer must confront in order to realize what they have in the tank to finish, not just a work–but this journey.
“The Turn” will teach you more than success ever will.
The writing you have to do is because you want to do it!
Writing is one of those things which are both solid and fluid. It can be done at any time, any where, and even with anyone! And for that cause, for that reason, it is the thing by which grants unnamed people immortality or grants hope to other places.
As of This year, I am in my 8th year of indie writing, blogging, and authorship.
Has it been easy? Of course not!
Yet, what has allowed me to keep going, to trust in my talent, and make in-roads for myself (and others) is my ability to revamp my approaches or content, and pivot when need be and necessary.
Why, this blog happened because I saw a need, and sought to fulfill it. While there are other writers who do what I do, only I can do it like me–to the tune of over 1000 posts at this point (I’m pretty proud of that!).
Yet, the most crucial tool that I can use, and use often is revamping. I often look at what I am doing that is working, what isn’t working, and what I need to do better.
In order to do what I love to do, which is write, I need to be able to look at what I am doing not just as an artist–but an adult! I still have a life outside of words! Since I have other responsibilities, I have to build like around those also.